I Give Up

I'm so tired, of everything. I've always had the curveballs thrown to me in my life, just like anyone else, but lately it's just getting overwhelming. I won't go on about my life and try to conjour up a pity party for me, so I'll just simply say that I gave up. They always talk in church about "giving it up" and "just trust God, He will take care of you". That is so much more easier than said. I don't trust easy, let alone our mighty God. Sure I've told Him "I trust you God" so many times, doesn't mean I've ever truly taken it to heart. Honestly I probably still haven't. I'm surely trying my hardest though, honest to God.
There's a guy I know and he's a bit older, like 40s older, and he was telling me how he has only been a Christian for about 7 years now. He told me it wasn't until about 5 years ago that he truly trusted God and he told me how it happened. Apparently he had been driving to work and stressed out enough with life he told God "I want to trust you, make me trust you, put me in a situation where I have to trust you". Later that day he got called into his boss's office and he was laid off. I can't imagine how I'd take it, I know most people would have said something along the lines of  "really God? I tell you I want to trust you with my heart and you do this?" I know I probably would have, heck I pretty much did say that back in the summer. Instead he felt wow, you really did put me in a situation where I have to rely on you. You have to admit it, he was asking for it. Now he's making enough and able to keep doing what he's doing. He trusted God through all that. I want to be able to say that.
Like a lot of other young 20 something year olds I have no clue what the heck I'm doing, where I'm going, what I'm going to do with my life. Last night, after a few really rough days with so many different situations going on, I gave up. I've never prayed much because I always feel like I'm bad at it, but I prayed and I didn't care how, I gave up. I hope I finally let go and let God as the saying goes. I guess time will tell. I hope I can really let go and just trust God to do what He does. I really hope God gives me signs on where to go from here and figure out what I should do. Here's praying to it cause I've got a long road ahead of me.