Monday, November 29, 2010

Reconnected

So here's a slight summary, if you wanna hear more ask me.
Growing up, especially when I hit middle school, I was...embarrassed by my hearing problem. I hated it, I didn't like myself for it. It was stupid. I've always felt awkward since I'm in between deaf and hearing (technical term is hard of hearing i think) and I couldn't totally relate to either side. but after going to a mainstream school (since people didn't see the point of me going to a deaf school) since 4th grade naturally I tried relating to the hearing people more. And eventually I basically severed all ties with deaf people. It wasn't so much as avoiding them as it was simply just not keeping in contact with them anymore (though I was only close with 2 of them since i left the deaf school). Then a couple years ago on myspace and facebook I reconnected with those two friends but left it at that. A couple other deaf kids added me too but I didn't know them from school but they knew the two guys I knew and i never really talked much with them.
Then this past year I finally accepted who I am, I didn't hate myself so much anymore (big props to God for that one), and I've been so much happier now for it. Then early in the summer I decided to look for my old friends on facebook (myspace sucks haha). I remembered everyone's first name but not their last...so it was pretty hard haha. Over the summer I saw sean for the first time since 3rd grade when he was with my lifelong friend keith. So he added me of course. But i couldn't find anyone else which sucked. I looked for about 3 or 4 other friends I had at that school. No luck.
But in 2 days i have found 4 of them! Yeah I'm pretty stoked :) two of them I knew pretty well and one of those two was one of my closest friends when I was little. And I'm very excited to be friends again and hopefully get to know each other again.
And I'm even more excited to get back to learning sign language, I lost a lot of it but I'm confident it'll come back. Especially since apparently a lot of my friends are learning it too! haha

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