The Answer to Life's Greatest Question Has Always Been...

Everyone has their demons and some sort of thing that troubles them in life. I have a lot of history and it gets to me, especially in infrequency. I hate admitting this, it makes me feel like I'm nuts or not a man, but sometimes I'll randomly get super down and out and not have a care because I feel like giving up. Maybe lately it's more so because more and more of my friends have left town for school and I haven't gotten out much.
My biggest fault I think is that I think too much sometimes, when that happens I tend to shut myself off, hang out with a select group of people (which is like 3 or 4 people and I haven't even seen them in a long time) and worse of all I kind of shut myself off from being active in my faith. You wouldn't know it unless I told you though cause I can put on a pretty good show sometimes when I'm in actuality not doing great.
I think it's because I haven't really gotten it through to myself to be like Matthew 11:28 and put my burdens off my shoulders and onto Jesus's shoulders. If you think about it, he died with all of our troubles, our filth, our sins on HIM. I'm still trying to figure out how the heck to put all the pain I feel, all the worries I have onto him and just live life. If there's one thing I've always known, it's that there's a whole difference to knowing it and living it. I know that I just need to put all my burdens on Jesus and he will give me rest, but I'm having a hard time living it.
I doubt I'll ever truly be worry free and I know for a fact I'll never be perfect or always be living life exactly the way I should be. And I think that is what scares me the most, is the fear that I'll find a way to screw up everything and not live up to the potential we all have inside of us. But as long as I am breathing I will never lose my faith as shaken as it may get at times, I have faith that my God is watching me and will not let me lose hope in everything. When it comes down to it, God is great, and if HE is for us then who could stand against us. Or try saying it like this, if God is for ME then who could stand against me?