You can't change the world...but you can make a dent in it

          Lately I've been a pretty bitter person with so much evil going on in the world. Statistics says that violence has been declining for the last century but with the media it's put under much more of a spotlight. Americans throw away about 164 billion dollars, give or take a few, worth of food every where but to eradicate hunger it would take tens of billions less than that (I posted the stats on that a couple years ago but I can't remember the exact figure). In America the rich are getting richer while the middle class is slowly becoming the new poverty as almost half of all Americans have less than 10,000 in savings and the top .1% have about 90% of the wealth. Gangs are a huge problem in America as there are killings every day. Many countries have a lack of labour laws and many Americans are content with that as long as they don't have to hear about it or see it. It would take days to go down the list of all the injustices going on in the world and it really sucks. The 5 Walton kids of Walmart are worth 16 BILLION dollars EACH and yet the majority of their workers are on some sort of government aid. I can't help but wonder how much good could I do with that kind of money. I can't help but be so upset with those who make so much, and keep so much, and give just enough to look charitable. How can I do anything making less than 20k a year?
         
          Now we, as every day Americans, live a much better life than the majority than the rest of the world as far as having a roof over our heads and food to fill our stomachs, but there's still so many problems here, and so many problems in the rest of the world that I feel like many of us are ignorant, or choose to be ignorant, to. Being aware of all these things going on in the world, it's hard to know that I can't do anything to fix a lot of the problems that billions of people go through, I don't even know where to start. And I have always vowed that the more money I make, the more I will use it to try to make a difference.

          But then you hear quotes like these:
"You can't change the world, but you can make a dent in it"
"You can't help everybody, but everybody can help somebody"
"No one has ever become poor by giving" Anne Frank
"If you can't feed a hundred people, then just feed one" Mother Theresa
"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give" Winston Churchill?

          I cannot claim to be the most charitable person and it's likely I never will be, be kind of hard to beat Mother Theresa and Ghandi on that one, but I can at least do something. Back in 2010 when I started working overnight at Walmart, I started reading a book by Francis Chan called Crazy Love which challenged me so much. I made the decision at the time to sponsor a child through Compassion organization and that has been an awesome journey as I've gotten to know a kid in Ethiopia name Abenezer, and I'm able to make a difference in his life. I may not be able to feed and save hundreds right now, but I'm making a difference I hope. Now there's still so much more I can do, and I'm being more and more aware of what companies to buy from, or what charities to avoid, I had signed up for Feed My Starving Children but have yet to actually go in; but from this point on I will make more efforts. I will do my best to stop supporting greed and companies that aren't true to their mission statement. Of course no one is perfect and I know I can't be, and I know no one else can be, but as they say, it's the effort that counts.

          I can be quite the cynical person by nature, I don't feel like I show love very well outwardly, but I really do care and I really want to do things to change the world. And mostly I want to see everyone do their part. I want to see the violence stop, the hatred towards one another stop,  the stupid fighting over political parties (of politicians who couldn't care less about us no less), the ignorance of what's going on because many just don't want to know about it. It really sucks to see all these people who care more about what Kim Kardashian is doing, about what sport team is winning, those who love to rip and bully those who support another political party, or believe in a different religion, anything at all that continues to drive all of us apart. None of us are perfect, but it's about time we all realize that about ourselves, and instead focus on what we can do to help others get out of their holes knowing that we are not any better than anyone else.

          Now I titled this "you can't change the world, but you can make a dent in it" because I just want to encourage everyone to find a cause, not a political cause, that they are willing to put effort towards to make a difference. I realize that I can't help all the starving children in the world, I can't sponsor every child, I can't donate millions to defeating hunger and poverty, I don't run a company to take care of employees, I can't support every single good charity all at once. But that's okay, it's perfectly okay, and I shouldn't feel guilty that I can't. All I can do is continue to sponsor Abenezer, give what money I can to help those less fortunate, go to Feed My Starving Children for a day or two or three a month, make sandwiches and give socks to homeless next time I go to Chicago like I did with some people in the past. It's the little things that matters right? If everyone can support a cause, any cause at all, we can all collectively make a difference. Not everyone needs to support the same charities I do, that way all the other charities are forgotten about. I encourage everyone to find something they feel strongly about and do what you can about it. There's so many little things all of us can do.

Not everyone can be Bruce Wayne, but we can all be someone. Maybe someday I can learn to not be so cynical and bitter about the greed and heartlessness in the world. But I can't imagine having that attitude is influencing anyone to want to help others. It's something I need to work on. I've been holding a lot of these feelings in for a while now and I just wanted to get it out. I know there's so many friends I have already who are so generous and loving and make huge differences in many lives, but I know we all can do even more. I hope someday I can make an even bigger difference. Let's make this world a better place together.

"Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth"

          Recently I had been discussing how my dad is a truck driver with a friend and I brought myself in the conversation of being a truck driver but I couldn't due to my hearing. My friend brought up that he thought it was for the better that I could not be a truck driver because I'm too much of a thinker, and therein lies one of my downfalls. Now I'm far from the smartest person, but I spend too much time thinking and worrying and pondering, but not enough time just accepting things. In other words, I over think everything and it affects me too much from time to time.

For a long time I wouldn't call myself a Christian because I could not comprehend how a God who cares, could let there be so much suffering. But in reality I was just unhappy with how my own life had been going and didn't want to believe in a God who didn't “bless” me. In time I learned to look at things from a perspective not my own, putting the foot in another shoe so to speak. After spending a long time with research and trying to “discover the truth”, I came to the conclusion that there is a God, but that was the easy part. The hard part was trying to wrap my mind around the fact that Jesus loves me, having a relationship with a God who isn't here physically in front of me that I could text or call anytime, relying on feelings all the time, the fire that one feels from time to time. The easy part is believing in God, the hard part is denying yourself and picking up the cross daily as Jesus says in Luke 9:23

It's hard to write this post as I want to get several points across without writing 3 or 4 more posts on something that all relates to each other in a way. I think the overall point I want to make is how hard it can be to have a relationship, but also how simple it really is at the same time, bringing up my own thoughts on the struggles I've faced with that. But also, I wanted to talk about how important it is to have that relationship and why we strive, and should always strive, to have that relationship in the first place, why it's so completely worth fighting and dying for.

A mindset I've noticed that has become more popular, which is a contrast from the mindset of many, many generations before us, is that we are entitled to everything, that we all deserve to have the best reward. A new generation of feeling like a man and wife who makes good money and raises a family in a good neighborhood is better than a person who sacrifices their life to help poor people and give everything they've got. This is a popular thought even among Christians. We may not say it out loud but that's what I see, go to a 4 year school, get a job, and you deserve the best. But isn't life more than that? Isn't life more than works and just doing what's expected of you while expecting everything handed to you in return? It isn't all about waking up, go to work, provide for your family, sleep, repeat. A popular quote that goes around is, and I'm probably paraphrasing as there's many versions, “are you alive or just breathing?”.

I'm as guilty as anyone when it comes to that mindset, that I expect fair return for my hard work, my opinion is right and if you don't think so then you're wrong, and that I'm the one that's alive and the world should revolve around me, even if I don't say it out loud. I think a lot of people are to be honest, even if it sounds wrong of me to say. The point I'm trying to make here, is I've heard many arguments against God that we deserve to go to Heaven, whether we're sinners or not. It's a very hard truth to accept that those who do not believe that Jesus died for our sins and rose again to save us so that we may know God are not going to be permitted in Heaven. There was a time when that made more sense and people were so happy to know that we had a savior who died for us, and now many think it's wrong that we need a savior, as if we were already good enough to die for, and that good works should be enough to buy our ticket to Heaven. But who of us would offer shelter to someone who ridicules us at the same time? Some might act like a saint and say they would but I think they'd be lying, ironically however, Jesus calls us to love our enemies and pray for them.

It seems like there's been a sense of feeling that Christians are mindless sheep and Jesus isn't worth having a relationship with. To be sure, I struggle with giving myself to Christ completely and picking up my own cross daily, but being a mindless sheep is the last thing Jesus calls for us. He embraces our uniqueness and gave us all different sets of skills that we may contribute to the world, as Psalm 139:13-14 says, “you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well”. He blesses those with the ability to make wonderful music, those with skills of art, those who have the heart of a servant to help the poor and weary. Those don't sound like sheep to me, it sounds to me like He intended a world where everyone, with their own identity as indicated in Isaiah 64:8, and unique set of skills can come together and live life to its true fullest as well as worship God in everything. Somewhere along the lines, being a Christian went from being an amazing blessing to being a sense burden and punishment.

When I was little, I had quite a phobia of death, I was literally scared every single night for a long time that I would sleep and not wake up. What scared me wasn't hell, it wasn't that there might be nothing after life, but rather I was scared of Heaven. One time at a youth group when I was in middle school, one of the leaders said something that really made my already existing fear of Heaven even worse. He said he believed that when we go to Heaven, we would “be so amazed by God that we would do nothing but fall on our knees in awe”, literally saying we would do nothing for all eternity but stare at God. That's scary to think about, no? For all eternity...eternity is a long, long, long, long, time. Then I felt guilty for a long time because what if that's how Heaven will be? Of course I should feel lucky to look upon God and nothing else for all eternity. Don't get me wrong, I will be in awe when I see God, but I don't think that's the idea God had in mind for us, especially since the bible tells us differently.

I read a book shortly after becoming a Christian promptly called Heaven by Randy Alcorn. I thank God for this guy cause I don't think I could have been more excited for Heaven otherwise. While the way he describes Heaven in his view is completely refreshing, it's hard to remember that he got everything from the bible itself, maybe I should have just read my bible more. If we think about Heaven and the new earth in it's truest form, the Garden of Eden, I think we can see how God intends it to be. Jesus describes in John 14:2-3 that “in my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am”, and in Matthew that if we follow Him, we will have treasure in Heaven. When I think of Heaven, I imagine the streets of gold in the new city as described in Revelations, with a home I can truly call my own as given to my by God, I think about endless mountains and forests to explore and animals I can discover and interact with.

So where is God in all of that? That's the beauty of it, He is everywhere. Even here, we are called to glorify God when we eat, drink, and in everything we do, as mentioned in 1 Corinthians 10:31, in Heaven we will truly glorify God in everything we do, whether it is eating, drinking, hiking, cliff diving, being with other people, singing with other people, swimming, basically everything we already experience here on earth will be perfect and the way it was intended. I think when Jesus talks about Heaven and the treasures waiting for us, He's not talking about gold and silver but rather everything I mentioned above. When I think of the treasures I want, I don't think about money, but I think about the freedom to go on adventures and see sights, but I think another treasure is a perfect relationship with Jesus. Because honestly, I don't think I have a good relationship with Him. I don't pray nearly as much as I should, actually closer to rarely praying. I want a relationship so bad, but as I talked about earlier, it's hard for me to have a relationship with Jesus when I can't physically talk or see Him now. It's hard to believe the unseen and to have faith that I'm saved by grace, like I said, it's easy to believe in God, but for some it's hard to have a relationship. Logically and scientifically, I think everything points to an intelligent designer, the beauty and intricacy of this universe is so amazing and I see God's fingerprints all over it.

But it sounds way too good to be true right? At least, that's how I feel all the time, but it's really as simple as that. Every year I have been able to grow in some ways, and I know that as long as I pray (which I'm working at getting better at) and work at my relationship with Jesus, as I would if I were married or with my friends, His grace will cover me. I want many treasures in Heaven such as those I mentioned above, but the treasure that I'm seeking the most is a perfect relationship with Him. To be able to walk with Jesus, physically and spiritually, in the garden.